I submitted my FIT portfolio and application….. I don’t think I’ve felt so many emotions in one time before. I’m relieved that I’ve finally finished the whole damn thing. And that I can now breath and relax. But at the same time I’m extremely anxious. This is all I’ve ever really wanted. I remember my freshmen year and knowing exactly what I wanted. From what school I wanted to attend, to what internships I’ll want to participate in, to what career I’ll eventually have. I’ve dreamt for so long and known for so long and I’ve wanted it for so long. And i deserve it god dammit! I’ve gone through so many struggles. And no one even knows because I’ve done so well of covering them up. And I’m proud of that. Because it means that my dreams have triumphed my struggles. And regardless of my challenges I feel so blessed. God gave me a gift. And I’m going to use them to the best of my ability. I’m going to follow my dreams. And I always will I’m sorry this was a rant. SO. MANY. EMOTIONS. 

I submitted my FIT portfolio and application….. I don’t think I’ve felt so many emotions in one time before. I’m relieved that I’ve finally finished the whole damn thing. And that I can now breath and relax. But at the same time I’m extremely anxious. This is all I’ve ever really wanted. I remember my freshmen year and knowing exactly what I wanted. From what school I wanted to attend, to what internships I’ll want to participate in, to what career I’ll eventually have. I’ve dreamt for so long and known for so long and I’ve wanted it for so long. And i deserve it god dammit! I’ve gone through so many struggles. And no one even knows because I’ve done so well of covering them up. And I’m proud of that. Because it means that my dreams have triumphed my struggles. And regardless of my challenges I feel so blessed. God gave me a gift. And I’m going to use them to the best of my ability. I’m going to follow my dreams. And I always will

I’m sorry this was a rant. SO. MANY. EMOTIONS.